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Claudia's avatar

Your letters always come to me at weird times in the UK, but my God, do they speak what I feel.

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so a good few years after I abandoned books, walking out to buy cigarettes and never returning, this writing of yours is nourishing a want in me to go back to books again. Not sure if it will happen yet, but anyhow. Obliged, I guess.

I am a little puzzled at anyone who is looking for meaning or purpose or vindication from the world. Its like asking the universe to sing you a song, or tell you a joke. So with meaning -> sometimes you get the joke, or know the tune, and sometimes it passes you by. Finding out what makes a tune good, or a joke funny, & honing them and refining your craft is a both a hermetic & a social enterprise, and I guess its the same with living a meaningful, purposeful life, even when all three - life, jokes and music are all inconsequential, from a certain perspective. If sisyphus were to make someone laugh over and over again, despite them slowly sobering up between sets, or if he was singing a child to sleep over and over again despite their morning wakening, it would not seem so obvious a punishment. I think the punishment is that sisyphus is alone, and that he cannot adapt, cannot change his methods. Its as if he always tells a joke that falls flat and is doomed to always repeat it verbatim, with the same inflection, delivery,

& timing.

When I feel shit is going sisyphean its a warning to me, and to any of us, that we need to change things - which he couldn't do. We can. As with the slow masochistic grind of reading books a few years ago - I left it behind. And now, I guess in part to your weird & güd, it doesn't seem so uphill.

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